1st day.

My baby embarked down the 13 year road of required education yesterday.
After he was all settled in to his new classroom I anticipated elation to set in.
On the contrary, I walked around sad and blue all day long.

It looks like all smiles here in this picture. Oh, just wait for my big goof up to ruin everything…


I watched the clock all day waiting for school to end. I specifically told him that he would not be getting on the bus home because I would be there to greet him right outside his classroom after school. I did a goof by mistaking the school end time with the bus stop time. I show up to school and no kids anywhere. You want to see a frantic momma doing the panic, ugly cry in the Principal’s office, that was me. Apparently he was put on the bus due to my mistake and miscommunication. I raced to the bus stop and made it just in time to meet a distraught little boy getting off the bus, both of us in tears.
A few hours later and some major making up done it was time to celebrate a semi-successful first day of school.
Day two, brought a PLANNED bus ride which turned out much better.

Unfortunately the hole is my heart hasn’t healed.
I’m so happy he’s enjoying school but I don’t know if I am.

Comments

  1. Oh, I think this must happen to each of us at least once, and rarely does it get repeated…

  2. i’m dreading the day my little man goes off to school. and, it’s three years away! amazing how they can drive us so crazy sometimes but really keep us sane by being around. :) just remember, these days will pass faster than we can imagine and as he’s learning and growing, you’ll probably begin to love this little journey through kindergarten he’s on. :)

  3. Michelle, I know exactly how you feel. You get over in time, but those feeling make there way back. My son graduates high school this year

  4. Anonymous says:

    My son is 29 but I still remember his first day of school and when his teacher closed the door and I had my nose pressed to the window she assured me he would be ok. I went home and cried the whole day! When I picked him up and saw the biggest smile spread across his face I knew it would be ok.

    The next time you will feel that way? When you drop him off at college! Does not get easier! LOL

  5. my oldest baby heads to kindergarten on the bus for the first time in 2 weeks. i know i will be a mess of tears… he is excited to be such a big boy, and i am excited for him, but man my heart is breaking, too. there goes my baby! i am sure the elation will come once you get set in a routine and are comfortable. at least i hope so! i’m aiming for elation, too!

  6. my oldest baby heads to kindergarten on the bus for the first time in 2 weeks. i know i will be a mess of tears… he is excited to be such a big boy, and i am excited for him, but man my heart is breaking, too. there goes my baby! i am sure the elation will come once you get set in a routine and are comfortable. at least i hope so! i’m aiming for elation, too!

  7. my oldest baby heads to kindergarten on the bus for the first time in 2 weeks. i know i will be a mess of tears… he is excited to be such a big boy, and i am excited for him, but man my heart is breaking, too. there goes my baby! i am sure the elation will come once you get set in a routine and are comfortable. at least i hope so! i’m aiming for elation, too!

  8. my oldest baby heads to kindergarten on the bus for the first time in 2 weeks. i know i will be a mess of tears… he is excited to be such a big boy, and i am excited for him, but man my heart is breaking, too. there goes my baby! i am sure the elation will come once you get set in a routine and are comfortable. at least i hope so! i’m aiming for elation, too!

  9. my oldest baby heads to kindergarten on the bus for the first time in 2 weeks. i know i will be a mess of tears… he is excited to be such a big boy, and i am excited for him, but man my heart is breaking, too. there goes my baby! i am sure the elation will come once you get set in a routine and are comfortable. at least i hope so! i’m aiming for elation, too!

  10. Congrats on your first day of school Tani! I always wanted to ride bus to school. You are lucky!

  11. on my daughter’s first day of Kindergarten I was supposed to pick her up, I got to school and waited in line and when I got to the pick up point they didn’t know where she was, I was panicked. I went home waiting for the bus that never came. I rushed back to the school and they called around to the buses and finally found her. They had made a mistake and put her on the bus instead of in the pick up line. The bus driver said she would wait in front of my house for me to get there. It ended up being more traumatic for me than her.

  12. Oh my such a classic goof up but definitely a great one for the memory book that you will both revisit over the years with lots of smiles! You took me back 13 years ago as my now 18 year old just got back from his orientation at UCLA last night. You should have seen me run outside to greet him and wrap my arms around him.
    See, things don’t change much. A dry run… I’ve got about one month before school starts. The grains of sand are almost through. Boy did those 13 years fly by. Your boy is adorable. I love that age. Hold on, it’s going to be a great ride. Enjoy every minute!! By the way, I’ve had many of those situations over the years when I’ve either been late or got the time wrong. I’m sure you’ll be much better today:)
    P.S. I wanted to tell you I found my bathroom rugs at Homegoods or TJ Maxx a couple of years ago. If I see them again, I’ll be sure and let you know.
    xo

  13. Ah Michelle…hey at least your kid got a really cool Welcome back to school banner.

    I know sending them off to school kind of sucks. I feel you. The whole bus thing would be so traumatic.

    Have a great day!

  14. Okay, I’m not a mom, but you all are making me tear up. haha

    I think the first day of school is accompanied by many bus ride miscommunications. My dad is and has always been (even when I’m 28) the over protective type. When they put me on the school bus the morning of the first day, he followed behind the bus in his Chevy pick-up truck. He followed it to every stop (which had to look odd to other parents) and then on to school. He watched me from the parking lot go into the building and then we left for work. THEN, when the school bell rang, he was in the parking lot again, watching. And he still laughs to this day at how his craziness paid off because I got on the wrong bus! :) He watched me get on the wrong bus, tried to get the bus drivers attention to no avail, he hopped back in his truck, followed the bus frantically down the road honking the horn and when she finally stopped, he jumped on the bus to “resuce me”. haha

    I’m sure my future kids will one day endure some of this passed down crazy “momma bird” syndrome. haha Yes, I’m calling my dad a momma bird. :)

  15. When your relationship ends you lose your hopes and your dreams and your heart breaks. When you lose your child, you lose a hugh part of you.

  16. Anonymous says:

    Whatever you do, do NOt rule out Home Education. Flexible, effective and safe!

  17. Oh, Mama… don’t let your heart be torn up for too long. You’re going to have such a fun year with him hearing all the stories, having him read his new words and sentences, watching him start the journey to becoming the man God has already determined him to be. It will be fantastical. And frightening at times. But it’s all in His hands … just enjoy the ride! ;0)

  18. My thoughts exactly :)
    Darn all day AZ kindergarten.
    I struggled for several days-but he is so happy- over here- so I hear ya loud and clear. :)
    You’ll get used to it….we all had to do it.. :)

  19. Don’t beat yourself up! I think 1st day bus stop mixups are practically tradition. I remember doing it, and when my son started riding the bus for the first time ever, he didn’t bother watching for his stop. So he was the last kid on the bus, which was by then headed for the bus barn before he noticed. In the meantime I’m frantic, calling the school, the had to radio the driver and we finally got him home. Memories!

  20. My family has that special plate!! I looove it:-)

    me and my husband now have one that we made at a pottery shop to use for ourselves. Its our favorite present to give for weddings…we personalize them with the couple’s wedding colors or one we used Jamaican flag colors bc that is where they were going for their honeymoon. We put the first letter of the couple’s last name in the center:-)

    Thought I’d share- I always get excited when other families use them!

  21. Gratuliere den 1-sten Schultag ! Mein jungerer Sohn geht auch ab September zur Schule und ich weiss es nicht wie es alles wird … ich hoffe nur dass die Schule wird Ihm Spass machen, aber ich habe schon lange die Panik bekommen… ;) margaretha

  22. oh how fun and sad at the same time! my oldest jaxon had the easiest time going off to school so it wasn’t too bad for me! no trauma with him. in fact he quickly escorted me out of the classroom i followed him into and said bye mom! i couldn’t even give him a kiss and a hug!? i guess he gets his mushy side from his dad?

  23. Homeschooling!

    Look into it!
    Anna

  24. He is so cute! And I’m sure the memories of a little celebration of his first day will last longer than missing him getting out of school!

  25. Oh yes, the first day of school bus mix-up is a classic! My first day the bus driver got it wrong and made me get off at the wrong stop! Luckily, it was the same stop as my best friend, and her dad was there to assure me that it was ok to get off and go home with them. I don’t think it caused *too* many years of trauma in my childhood!

    I, for one, am counting the days, minutes and seconds until school starts for my Kinder-to-be next week. But I’m sure, come Wednesday morning I might be shedding a tear or too as well!

  26. Oh, I so remember my eldest daughter’s first day off to school in the Armed Forces military truck. We followed a safe distance behind in our car, cos we didn’t want her to see how insecure we were!

  27. My first day I got put on the WRONG bus by the school and didnt end up back at my daycare (who were obviously freaking out). Luckily I was on the same bus as my brother and the driver dropped us off at his afternoon sitters and she called my mom and the daycare to say I was safe!!

    I remember being SO upset about being on the wrong bus

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